What Does It Mean?

This song sums up my life... pretty much.

Running....

It's falling from the clouds

A strange and lovely sound

I hear it in the thunder and rain

It's ringing in the skies

Like cannons in the night

The music of the universe plays

You are holy great and mighty
The moon and the stars declare who You are
I'm so unworthy, but still You love me
Forever my heart will sing of how great You are
Beautiful and free
Song of Galaxies
It's reaching far beyond the milky way
Lets join in with the sound
C'mon let's sing it loud
As the music of the universe plays

All glory, honor, power is Yours amen

All glory, honor, power is Yours amen
All glory, honor, power is Yours forever amen

So I ran my first 5k yesterday. I was super nervous and wanted to throw up right before, so I prayed for peace. I most certainly got that prayer answered. As I was listening to worship songs that I put in a playlist for this purpose of running I had never wanted to Praise God more. I was past the first mile and was at the 8 and a half minute mark.... needless to say, I was proud of myself from the start. After that first mile I felt peace like crazy. I was smiling and passing people... going at a pace that felt almost too fast, I had no idea how much longer I had left and this song... Cannons by Phil Wickham started coming through my iPod. I turned my hand face up to worship God. I wanted to raise both my hands but that would have looked super funny to other people and would have been hard to run like that. I finished that 5k, closer to God, feeling accomplished and proud, and my dad and bro and step mom were also proud. God was running right next to me saying... "see how wonderful and happy this is... you are following Me and are on the right path, this is how life is supposed to feel and be, you aren't supposed to be drowned in sorrows day in and day out, you are suppose to be going through life at my pace and smiling as the pain ceases to control you."

*sorry if all this was a little all over but I'm thinking you understood what I typed... :)*

I'm.Loved.

Believe

Wait, wait, wait, there's somethin' that I gotta say
It'll take, take, take, just a minute so don't walk away
I search in circles for a remedy
To fight the poison that is killing me
It's like I'm falling fast head over feet
Is anybody listening?

[CHORUS]
I wanna believe
I wanna believe in love againI wanna believe
I wanna believe in love again
Tired of living this way, tired of everyday
So will you help me
I wanna breakthrough
I wanna believe in you

Hey, hey, hey, why is everyday the same for me?
Fake, fake, fake, just pretend what I'm suppose to be
I need an answer for my remedy
I need a Savior 'cause I'm in too deep
I reach up,
Will You reach down here to me?
[CHORUS]

You found me, You were looking for me
You found me, You were looking for me
You found me, You were waiting for me
I can see Your love
You found me, You were waiting for me
I can see Your love

This song pretty much sums up my thoughts and hopes.

I.Want.To.Feel.Real.Love

Holding On... To A Voice

You see my anxious heart
You see what I am feeling
And when I fall apart
You are there to hold meHow great Your love for me
Now I see what You're thinking
You say I'm beautifulYour voice is my healing
Without You I just can't get by
So I'm

Hanging on to every word You speak
'Cause it's all that I need
Hanging on to every word You say
To light up my way
Even every little whisper I'm
Hanging on as if it were my lifeI'm hanging on

I've stumbled
I've been beaten down, bruised and broken
I've been called names and told things that are just used to make me feel less like a human and more like an object
My heart hasn't felt whole or soft since I can remember
I may be weak and human but these things I know are true...

God says I am beautiful
He loves me for all of my flaws and faults
He has been waiting for this day.. when I realize there is SO much more to this life than being used
He has never left me and never will
I left Him and when I realized there was no where to go but UP, He was there with arms wide open... welcoming home HIS child

I am Hanging On to EVERY word. I know I'm not the strongest and the Devil will use all he has to bring me back under and drown me in my sorrows and faults, God will always reach down and bring me back up when I turn to Him for guidance and realize that My way IS NOT the right way.

I.Surrender.