Have Your Way – Britt Nicole

Written: September 6, 2015

Pain. What is Pain?

Physical Pain
Cut Finger
Broken Bone
Headache
Scrapes
Bruises

Physical Pain is almost a daily thing but what about that pain that you keep hidden? All of a sudden scenes and words you have witnessed toss and turn in your head and bubble up to the surface. You are not able to keep them in any longer and you just explode into tears and anger. Emotional Pain is the worst kind of Pain in my opinion. Why? I have had quite a bit of physical pain, concussions, back pain, pulled muscles but all of that eventually went away and the pain has either subsided or went away all together.

Emotional Pain stays with you whether you want it to or not and can change the course of your life. (Obviously a Car Accident or finding out about a disease you have can also alter your life as well but I am talking about minor Physical Pain that goes away)

I bet you can remember a fight you had with your spouse, sibling, parent, or friend that you have had that either Helped or Hurt that relationship. You may still feel the pain from the fight or still remember the words that were said. In fact, if you remember the fight you most definitely remember how you felt during that time.

Several times I have bottled up my emotional pain and then I turned on the radio and started listening to Worship Music and BAM let the Floodgates of tears open. Once you start crying then you start remembering everything that you have had bottled up and then you start getting Angry. Angry at the Situation, At the Person, At Yourself, At God, At Life… At EVERYTHING.

Emotional Pain
Seeing Parents Fight (Cussing & Slamming Doors Upstairs) and having the two kids downstairs
Having a Parent Try to Commit Suicide
Feeling the effects of your Parents Divorce A Decade Later
Having to put your mother into a Mental Hospital the week of your birthday
Letting the First guy that pays attention to you.. have you when you know he has others
Watching Marriages fall apart over Finances
Having a Mother who wants to visit and No One wants to let her stay because she is “too much”

Thankfully this pain can be subsided and even disappear with the Help of a Loving God who wants to help his Children through the Pain. We have to turn to Him and trust that He knows what He is doing and never puts us through something we cannot handle.

“Why Can’t You Just Intervene
Do You See the Tears Keep Falling
And I’m Falling Apart At The Seams

You never said the road would be easy
You said that you would never leave
You never promised that this Life wasn’t hard
But you promised you’d take care of me

So I’ll stop searching for the answers
I’ll stop praying for an escape
and I’ll trust you God with where I am
and believe that you will have Your Way”

You take the Broken Things and turn them into Beautiful.

A Healed Hidden Scar

Driving home tonight from a Revival service…

I asked God to open my eyes to my heart and BAM he revealed something to me that has been hidden for probably 8+ years and man was it powerful. The instant God revealed it, I relived my life and emotions in about 10sec and it hit me like a ton of bricks and brought me to tears… I know real great while driving right? Haha.

I had a best friend who I held so high on a pedestal in my life.

I did not even realize it at the time. We had become friends as soon as I started going to this then “new church” to me. So we had been friends for a good amount of years, then we had a “falling out” Junior/Senior year of High School. Completely stopped talking to each other and stop being friends. When we stopped talking, I lost this friend and also their family who had become “my” family. See my Mom and Dad divorced in 2000 or so. Then my brother and mom got into a terrible car/semi accident and by the grace of God they both survived. So I had already been through a TON of stuff that a child should not have to go through.

So you can imagine when I lost my friend and my “second” family – who was loving, caring, put together and who spoke life and fun into my life – how hurt I was.

The scar on my heart was so deep that I did not even know it was there.

BUT GOD HAD A PLAN…

I had kept this goofy card that this friend had given me – it is one of the best cards I have ever received in my life. I would re-read this card, use it as a bookmark and would let it remind me to pray for her. Man did I ever pray… I wanted to throw that thing away so many times because of the reminder it gave me, but God would not let me.

HE had a different plan.

Instead he had us going through very similar situations and 4 years later we would meet up and spill our guts and laugh about how in the world we ended up where we were. And now… another 4 years later we have been able to hang out, talk about life and laugh.

Just when you think you have lost Hope God keeps that card in your sight just remind you that the Best Is Yet To Come. I am so blessed to have this friend back in my life. She has been such a blessing throughout the Good and the Bad times.

That scar that was left on my heart – due to my own emotional pedestal has now been healed.

My God is Revealing Love in so many ways.